Looking Foward

Lately I have been looking at my future a lot. Can I just tell you that I am so scared. There was a point in time when I knew what my future was gonna be like. That wasn't that long ago. The problem is, it's right around the corner now. A year ago, graduating early, getting into beauty school, getting a job, having the money for it I needed by the time I needed, it all seemed so easy. Now it seems, not impossible, just unlikely.

Now the future doesn't seem like beauty school. It seems like the future is everything. It's will I have a family? Will I die a crazy old spinster with a million cats? Will I die alone? Will I ever get a book published? Will I be able to look back at my life and feel like I have done good?

I have goals. That, in my opinion, is something everyone needs in order to really progress in life. Are they big enough? Will I be able to reach them? Lots of people say "Shoot for the moon, and then if you don't make it, at least you'll land somewhere in the stars." Well that's lame in my opinion. The stars? They aren't such a great place to be. Think about it. The moon has bases on it, with air. The stars? They have no air. All they are, are huge balls of fire. I would burn up and die. Just like life. If I put my money into becoming a doctor, and the classes are to much for me, and I run into a hard time, and everything comes down on me, and I am just not strong enough to it all, then where do I end up? In a big pile of debt with no job at all. If I am lucky I can flip burgers at McDonalds. That's where I end up.

So I am nothing but freaked out right now. I have no security blankets to grab on to, I have no constants, I have no rock right now. So what do I turn to? I think I know. Honestly I didn't until I wrote that down. I have been crying, wondering what I am going to do, but I just figured it out. I turn to the only people who are there for me, even when I am not there for them. I just realized that I need to pray a little more than I normally do. That should be my rock. Friends come and go, boys come and go. But in the end, They are there for me forever.

♥Final Words♥ Make Them your rock.