Boy, what a year! 2012 has been the craziest year full of so much change! But I have grown so much and become stronger from every single trial I've had. So here's a list of my biggest and greatest changes and events in 2012.
1- in February I got to go to Alabama and visit my sister, her husband, and their super cute boys! It was great getting to connect with my sister and her family!
2- in March I started going to Renaissance Acadmie of Hair in Provo. I love it. It's been fun learning new techniques and meeting some great people! I have had a blast there so far and I'm hoping to finish by the end of 2013. Then I plan on going to school to become an English teacher.
3- in May I graduated high school (officially). I had no classes, but I wasn't officially graduated because I wanted to get a tuition break in cosmetology school. But I walked and got my diploma and shook my principal's hand, and it was fun seeing all of my old friends some for the last time.
I also ended two long term relationships in May and they taught me so much about myself. Letting go of people who have been a part of you and your life for so long takes time and energy. It pushes you to levels you didn't know existed. But it brought me closer to God and my family and I am so grateful for that.
4- in June I turned 18 and got a new job. I had a pretty.... awful birthday actually haha but it was a huge part of a healing process that brought me to where I am today. I also lost one of my best friends. Cory Cloward was an old friend of mine, and he chose to leave this world by his own hand. And it hurt. And I miss him, and I love him. Rest in Peace Cory.
5- in July one of my best friends Bailey got married to the wonderful Ben! I am so happy for her and I am so glad that she found an amazing guy who loves her and treats her right. Another close friend of mine Sami married Michael Thomas and after 2 years they finally got hitched!
6- in August I got my first tattoo with a couple of my closest friends Kylie and Estevan! I got a butterfly on wrist, my energy creature. Something that represents God, life, learning, growing, who I am, where I am going and what I want to become. Everything that is important to me is tattooed permanently on my wrist. Also for anyone that knows me, I mean come on! It's a tattoo! I am such a pansey all the time I am still surprised I got it (I almost chickened out too!)
I also moved out of my parent's house. It's been nice living on my own and having to take care of myself and be responsible for me. Although I miss my family being around all the time, and I hate buying toilet paper... But I have been able to appreciate my parents more and it has brought us closer together. I also lost another friend this month. Mike Creviston was a light in many people's lives including mine. Why he chose to leave us I will never know, but I do know he's with God. Until we meet again Mike.
7- in October I met the most amazing guy I have ever met in my entire life. Someone who loves me and treats me like I am of great worth. He doesn't ask me to become more, he doesn't push me to be better, but when I am around him I want to become more and be better. I want to be all that he thinks I am. I have been blessed to be put into someones life who sees me the way Christ sees me, and I can see him the way Christ sees him as well. My grandmother passed away from cancer in October as well. After living many years with my parents it was hard to see her go. But I know she's so happy to be with her parents, sisters, daughter and her husband. I know they are watching down on me every day.
8- in November I got my second Tattoo. It says "God Family Self" on my shoulder. I love it. The three most important things in life right there, forever a part of my physical being. I also got promoted at work, which was nice. One of my friends Keith also came back from his mission as well and it was fantastic seeing him again! I also started going back to the LDS church. I had an experience where that was what the Lord told me I should do. It's been rocky and rough, and I am still working to gain a full testimony but that'll take a lifetime. I have friends and family who support me in this endeavor one hundred percent and I have God and Christ. And I am doing okay.
9- in December was a month of engagements! Kylie and Estevan got engaged (I love them both SO much!). My older sister Janean and her boyfriend Brian were engaged (and they are so perfect together it's almost disgusting!). My basically-sister Sarah got engaged to her man Brandon on Christmas, and on top of all of that I got engaged to Matt. I couldn't be happier!
So 2012 was a big year for me. It was full of loss, achievement, growing, learning, and finding myself. At the beginning of 2012 I didn't have a strong relationship with God, my family, or myself. I was depressed and confused about who I was and what I wanted for my future. At the end I am in a loving relationship with an amazing man. But more importantly I have amazing relationships with God and my family and I have self esteem. Thanks 2012 for pushing me to my limits and showing me what I was made of.
For 2013 I expect to get married, finish cosmetology school, move around a bit, get a new job, and hopefully enjoy life. New Year resolutions: Read scriptures every single day, even if it's only a chapter. Work hard to be a good sister and to be a good wife. And lastly I want to make sure the spirit is present in my home. Prayer, scriptures, faith, honesty and hard work must be apart of my life consistently.
Final Words <3 What did 2012 give to you? What are you planning to work for in 2013? (As if those two questions aren't over asked this time of year! haha)
